omg there is nothing to do. “/ somehow i feel like venting my feelings out right now. hmm i guess i will. well lets start off with how foolish and dumb i feel. hmm, it was the second time that happen to me. i feel really stupid for falling in that situation all over again while i told my self not to. Its, not that i cant its something in side me that doesnt want to. it hurts. i fell deep into it this time. and cant stop thinking about him. (sigh) high school is such a draagg. im lagging on my homework and projects. im failing badly. its not that i dont try to get my grades up but hella shiz are going on and my mind just go bizar and like i have no idea what to do or how to think anymore. i tried my hardest on school. i try so hard to get my grades up i had a bad headache last month that i couldnt even lift my head off the pillow. it felt like some kind of big heavy thing is weighting on my head. i couldnt even get up to go eat. “/ hmm, too many things are happening at the same time i have no idea where to start and how to end it. i have given my friends so many goood advices. but somehow when it comes down to my self. i never seem to be fallowing my own advice. i try so hard in school but then my head is always in a different situation. (sigh) well heeeyy this is barly the beginning. “/